Welcome to Senior Year Saturday, my newest regular feature! Essentially, I talk about any and all things related to my final year of high school, from homework and extracurriculars to updates on college planning and thoughts on graduation. And more! (Such as that dreaded feeling known as “senioritis.”) Enjoy!
Hey, everyone. How has your weekend been so far? Mine has been pretty low-key. I did manage to send off another scholarship application, though, so that was nice. And now I’m writing this post to you. Because… I have senioritis. Like, a very bad case of it. Read on to find out more!
P.S. Previous Senior Year Saturday posts may be found here.
What is senioritis? I’m not sure if this concept exists in countries outside of the US but I’m guessing that it does, albeit under a different name. Senioritis is, as I understand it, twofold: It’s a combination of laziness and impatience. Some seniors become very, very lazy, particularly during their final semester of high school, and grow impatient to graduate (and then head off to college, if that’s in their future plans).
I have turned into one of those seniors.
Actually, I’m pretty sure I had a strong case of senioritis when I began my junior year. So you can imagine what it’s like now.
I’m just so impatient to graduate and go to college. I feel like I’m biding time here at home. I’m whiling away the hours, anxiously waiting for the day when I move into my new dorm room and attend classes and live on my own.
But it’s not because I’m bored by my classes, or because I’m feeling like a rebellious teenager. I just want to move on from this time in my life, that’s all.
I’ve known since I was little that my parents expected/encouraged me to attend college, and I’ve prepared for that for years. And after a while, that gets a bit old. I want to be at college now. Soon. I’ve been preparing for so long and I’d like to see how I actually fare once I’m there.
I want to see how I deal with living on my own. Living with a roommate. Attending classes when there’s no one to remind me, “Engie, shouldn’t you be heading off to class?” Doing my own laundry. Remembering to take a break from my projects before I get so engrossed in them that I forget to eat. (It’s happened more than once.)
And even if I struggle or fail at some of those things, they’ll still help me to learn and grow and change and just generally practice being an adult. I’m really looking forward to the day when all this begins to happen, even if it’s complicated and scary and weird and challenging at times.
I’ve waited so long to go to college and now all I want is to just be there, already. Right now I feel like I’m just waiting for the rest of my life to start, quite frankly. I daydream of finally heading off to college – acing a major test, studying in one of the campus’s many libraries, writing for the school newspaper, dating a cute girl who makes me laugh.
I wish that time could go faster. I cannot wait to head off to college and it’s making me very bored now. It’s a weird, weird feeling and I know I’ll probably regret this entire post on my very first day in college, because I’m sure that I’ll be overwhelmed. But it will be a good kind of overwhelmed. Because I’ll finally be there, in college, stretching my wings and trying new things and moving on to the next stage in my life. Finally.
Has anyone reading this experienced a similar feeling?