So I know that I literally JUST talked about school in my last post, but I really want to tell you about it again… because my acting class ended this past week! I really miss it since it was so much fun.
The final performance was on Wednesday. I didn’t get off to a good start that morning – I was so stressed about the exam that I laid awake in bed for hours the night before, so I was exhausted. I also had a really bad headache, like to the point where I was feeling dizzy and nauseous. I was worried that I wouldn’t be able to perform and felt bad because that would affect not only my grade but that of my scene partner as well.
But I did it! I gave it my all and had my best performance yet. And, well, it makes sense that my final performance would be good since I’d practiced incessantly for the past four weeks, but A) I was feeling sick and B) I’ve really struggled with my scene at times.
I was assigned a scene from Proof by David Auburn – a play I’ve grown quite fond of after spending so much time reading and rereading and analyzing it – and the scene required me to fight with another person. Verbally, not physically. I had to yell and swear at them and that is so not like me.
Anyone who knows me well knows that I can be super passionate about certain things, but I’m not really one for physical confrontation… my style of fighting is to write long thinky blog posts about whatever it is that has me upset. Also, it was hard to fight with my scene partner because I didn’t want to hurt her feelings! I know that it was all just pretend, but it’s still really odd to scream at a person to get a grade.
I think that in some ways feeling sick that day actually helped me, because I was in a terrible mood. And those split-second silences when one of us momentarily forgot our lines? I think that actually worked to our advantage because sometimes people are so angry they can’t speak.
While I’m on the subject of things I struggle with: I am awkward whenever someone compliments me. Ours was the only scene that had our classmates cheering at the end, and when the teacher asked if anyone had favorite performances from that day a bunch of people said mine.
I’m not saying this to brag, but because I’m just like HOW DO I HANDLE COMPLIMENTS? To be honest, most of the time I think I suck and so I bring out those compliments on bad days and think about times when people have said something unexpectedly kind and supportive. And then I feel awkward. Because I still don’t think I deserve it.
Well, I had fun, at any rate. And that’s what really matters, right? That and getting a good grade. (Which I did.) I’ve been thinking about perhaps auditioning for very small roles this fall – there are a number of student productions every semester. I’ll have to figure out if I even have time for that, but it would be a fun hobby.
Have you ever taken an acting class or performed in a play? What did you think about the experience?