It’s the night before the election and I wish my emotions would stop… doing whatever it is that they’re doing. Flinging themselves wildly up and down, I guess. I wish it were Tuesday night – or even better, Wednesday morning. I wish my feelings would stop going from ridiculously optimistic to ridiculously low in the span of fifteen minutes. I wish my stomach would stop twisting into knots of anxiety so bad that it makes me not want to eat.
I keep checking FiveThirtyEight obsessively, like several times every hour. I’m super tired – because of the election, and also because this has just been a really long day in general – but also jittery and on edge. And there’s nothing I can do about it. I voted early, the first day early voting was available at the student union.
I don’t know. I’m kind of a mess right now. I’m terrified about what would happen if Trump were elected, but Clinton’s not great either. And Mike Pence has been on my mind a lot lately? This weekend I was looking at one of my posts from the spring of 2015 when I was mad and sad about the anti-LGBTQ+ legislation he created. “Fire Mike Pence” and “Pence Must Go!” signs sprouted up all around my town back then – and now, no matter the outcome of this election, he won’t be our governor anymore. Buuuuut he might also be the second-most-powerful person in this country. And if something happened to Trump? It wouldn’t be “Make America Great Again,” it would be “Make America Indiana Again.” Wonderful. NOT.
I don’t even know. I had planned to write something more articulate tonight, but I’m really not feeling it now. Someone asked me if I would be at a Wednesday meeting and I was just like, well, I haven’t thought that far ahead and honestly it all depends on how much sleep I got the night before! In the meantime, my roommate and I are going to try to distract ourselves by watching Agent Carter and eating candy. As one does.
GO VOTE TOMORROW. PLEASE.
P.S. I found this SNL sketch from over a year ago and OH MAN it’s a blast from the past. Everyone thought the idea of Trump winning the primaries was so funny. HOW INNOCENT WE ALL WERE.