This February, I’m doing #LoveMe, a challenge designed to help you learn to love yourself! One of my New Year’s resolutions was to be kinder and more gentle to myself, so I’m trying to be as positive as I can possibly be in 2017 and hope that doing this challenge will be good for my mental health and overall well-being. Check out my previous #LoveMe posts here!
Today’s prompt is:
A word that describes you.
The word that best describes me is “dreamer.”
I thought long and hard about how I wanted to answer this particular #LoveMe prompt and eventually I hit upon the idea of referring back to my Meyers-Briggs type. I’ve taken a number of MBTI quizzes over the years out of either curiosity or, sometimes, sheer boredom/procrastination. No matter what, my result is always the same: INFP, also known as the dreamer.
I frequently have my head in the clouds. That is not always a good thing! Sometimes I feel like I’m sleepwalking my way through life because so much of it passes by in a blur while the gears in my head are slowly turning.
I dream that both the best and the worst will happen. I’m forever setting goals that are ever-so-slightly ridiculous – all right, maybe very ridiculous – in terms of how unrealistic they are. Because I want to DO IT ALL. Because I think I can DO IT ALL. I also worry A LOT about Big Bad Things happening because… because I’m an anxious dreamer, I guess.
(And as someone with social anxiety, many of my daydreams consist of me imagining how a particular interaction will go only to become flustered later on when that interaction actually happens IRL but doesn’t go as I planned. Oops.)
I have a million and one ideas in my head at any given moment. Some are related either to stories I’m writing at the moment or stories I want to write. Some are about stories that I’m fairly certain I’ll never write down, stories I’ve been working on in my head for years and enjoy coming back to again and again but don’t think they’d ever work in any space beyond my head. Some are ideas for nonfiction pieces I want to write.
When I’m not thinking about my own stories, I’m likely thinking about someone else’s: I’ve always been that person who is half-convinced that if only you try hard enough, if only you believe in just the right way and in just the right amount, you can will yourself into the world of a book or a movie or a TV show. I know it’s silly, but I’m always terribly disappointed when that fails to happen, because I’d rather be somewhere other than this life, my life, with all its dreams.
I wish those dreams were real and not just dreams.
I have three questions for you, readers! What is your Meyers-Briggs type? Regardless of your MBTI result, would you say you are a dreamer? And finally, what word most accurately describes you?!