What Do I Have To Do To Feel Enough?

even on my best days

even when i’m trying my hardest

i still want to feel better.

be better.

even on saturdays

when i study for fourteen hours

(until my eyes are dry and my head aches).


on good days

when i







even when i get

letters about scholarships,

emails about making the dean’s list,


praise from my parents.

it never feels like it’s enough.

like it’ll ever be enough.

like i’ll ever be enough.

i feel as though there is a


inside me.

it developed because i am

not doing enough

(or so my mind tells me)

and the only way i can fill it is by doing


how do i accept that

who i am


what i’m doing

right now



About nevillegirl

Elizabeth. University of Iowa class of 2019. Triple majoring in English & Creative Writing, Journalism, and Gender, Women's, & Sexuality Studies. Twenty-one-year-old daydreamer, introvert, voracious reader, aspiring writer, and lesbian. Passionate about feminism, mental health, comic books, and cats.
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