What Do I Have To Do To Feel Enough?

even on my best days

even when i’m trying my hardest

i still want to feel better.

be better.

even on saturdays

when i study for fourteen hours

(until my eyes are dry and my head aches).

even

on good days

when i

write

thousands

of

words

per

day.

even when i get

letters about scholarships,

emails about making the dean’s list,

and

praise from my parents.

it never feels like it’s enough.

like it’ll ever be enough.

like i’ll ever be enough.

i feel as though there is a

hole

inside me.

it developed because i am

not doing enough

(or so my mind tells me)

and the only way i can fill it is by doing

more.

how do i accept that

who i am

and

what i’m doing

right now

is

enough?

About nevillegirl

Elizabeth. University of Iowa class of 2019. Triple majoring in English & Creative Writing, Journalism, and Gender, Women's, & Sexuality Studies. Twenty-one-year-old daydreamer, introvert, voracious reader, aspiring writer, and lesbian. Passionate about feminism, mental health, comic books, and cats.
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