Here we are at the end of another year. How did it go by so fast?
2017 was… a decent year for me, all things considered. Not the best year of my life, but seemingly not as bad as the year some of my loved ones had. There were definitely setbacks and discouraging moments, but it was nowhere near as bad as the trash year preceding it.
Is that the issue? Am I pleased with this year because it’s not 2016?
We just don’t know.
I finished my sophomore year of college and began my junior year. I took some courses I hated, to be sure, but I took far more that I loved. I got to know some amazing professors! I added a third major – in Gender, Women’s, & Sexuality Studies.
I met some great people. Shout-out to Jessi, Patsy, Billie, Alyssa, Sara, Eliza, Cordelia, Kristen, JJ, Mia, Sammy, Onae, Lin, and many more!
I strengthened my friendship with Merric. When I interviewed them for a journalism project way back in April, I never could have imagined how close we’d become!
Clarissa and I hung out in person after three years of online friendship… the funny thing is, our hometowns are only a few miles apart but we go to different schools and are pretty busy so there was just never a good time to meet until this winter break!
I made the very difficult, yet ultimately wise, decision to cut several people out of my life because I felt that their presence was exceptionally negative, draining, and anti-recovery.
I read one hundred books, fulfilling my Goodreads goal exactly.
I read a poem per day in April to celebrate National Poetry Month and developed a major appreciation for poetry as a result! I’ve read more poetry + novels told in verse this year than ever before, I’m pretty sure.
I switched psychiatrists as well as medications. I think the one I’m on now is working as it’s supposed to? Looking forward to seeing how that goes in 2018.
I definitely had some rough mental health periods. Things were so bad for a while that my parents came to visit in October, which is something they’ve never done before. (Normally I go home for Thanksgiving, winter, and spring breaks and they don’t visit me because the drive is eight hours round-trip.) But I’m doing better now! I reeeeeally needed this break, oh my god… little by little I’m relaxing and recharging in order to feel strong enough to tackle the coming semester.
I wrote a first-person article on my OCD for a journalism class. The experience was quite cathartic + therapeutic!
I studied abroad! I absolutely FELL IN LOVE with Ireland. I miss it so much and can’t wait to go back someday! I only wish I could have stayed longer… oh, and I met Derek Landy (!!!) at a book signing when Skulduggery Pleasant: Resurrection was published!
I bought a fantastically warm, soft flannel. It’s so cozy I just had to mention it here!
I saw Moonlight. I mean, I saw a lot of movies this year, but Moonlight stuck with me the longest. Absolutely in awe of its plot + acting + cinematography + music. (And watching it upend La La Land at the Oscars was sooo satisfying!)
I got involved with the studyblr community, which did wonders for my productivity and self-discipline.
My cat died in May and I’m still super broken up about it… jsyk, I always appreciate any pictures of your own pets that you care to send my way. Helps me through the moments when I miss him rubbing against my legs or sitting in my lap and kneading my thigh while I write.
I joined the Women’s March on Washington, an experience I know I’ll still be talking about when I’m an old lady.
I turned twenty-one. (Gonna try champagne tonight to celebrate the New Year now that I’m of age, lmao!)
This little blog o’ mine turned SEVEN. How is that even possible?!
I co-chaired a panel on Wonder Woman, feminism, & mythology at the Midwest Modern Language Association conference in Cincinnati, OH.
How did I do on the resolutions I made at the beginning of the year?
- Set aside time to hang out with friends. Oh yes, absolutely. Relaxation still does not come naturally to me, but I’ve gotten much better at knowing when to put my laptop and notebooks aside for some QUALITY TIME with pals.
- Take my Her Campus responsibilities more seriously. Yeah, I think so? I turned in a couple of articles late but for the most part, I worked really hard and pitched only my very best ideas.
- Be kinder and gentler with myself and with my mental health. There’s no way to ever “finish” this because it’s something you gotta work on throughout your life, but I’d like to think I made some significant progress. Kicking mental illness’s little ass is no easy feat, but I. Keep. Trying.
Last but not least, I want to mention a project I worked on in February. (It seems so long ago!) I did the #LoveMe challenge… and my self-esteem + sense of self definitely received a boost.
Perhaps most importantly, I wrote a post for #LoveMe in which I mused upon one of my favorite Carrie Fisher quotes:
“Stay afraid, but do it anyway. What’s important is the action. You don’t have to wait to be confident. Just do it and eventually the confidence will follow.”
At the time I wrote the post, February 13th, I had no idea how much that quote would influence the rest of the year ahead. It guided me through so many rough times and pushed me to leave my comfort zone!
I’m sorry I never had the chance to meet Carrie but in a weird, roundabout way her death sort of helped me because I first came across that quote when one of my friends shared it a few days later. So, thanks for that. WHAT CAN I SAY I’M A BIG FAN OF THE IDEA OF PEOPLE LIVING ON AFTER THEIR DEATH THROUGH THEIR WRITING. I’ve never been a “word of the year” sort of person (although who knows, maybe I will be someday?) but if there is such a thing as a quote of the year, this was definitely mine.
How was your year?
Goodbye, 2017. Hello, 2018!